I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. ~Psalms 139:14
As I anticipated taking the test, a million thoughts run through my mind. Being a week late, and it being close to impossible because I’m always on time, I had a feeling what the test was going to say. I take the test and the results are what I expected… Positive. I was overcome with joy and gratefulness at the same time because I realized God’s timing is not our own (Ecc 8:6). Now thinking of how and when to tell my husband, in a special way, and wanting to see his excitement as well.
As weeks go by, I start feeling little flutters in my stomach. Just amazed how something so miraculous can be growing inside me. How one day these flutters will be a grown person.
Months go on by, and I’m finally starting to show that I have another human growing inside of me. Reading and researching on how a woman’s body works just for this tiny creation, God’s creation. In awe of how our bodies work so precisely, so organized, through the different stages. How our bodies provide everything that this creation will need to grow outside of the womb. How God created us (Gen 1:27), perfect just like Himself. Feeling the flutters turn into visible motions, kicks, punches and hiccups. Oh the hiccups… How they feel as a steady beat as if you could picture a little person outside the womb hiccupping. Wanting so badly to drink water so the hiccups could go away but enjoying them all at the same time.
Around this time, our little creation is in a breech position, head up and feet down. Now able to find out the sex, we were in anticipation again heading to the ultra sound appointment. As they put the monitor on and we look at the screen we see him for the first time. Yes him! His tiny little hands and feet, his small and adorable body, but best of all his perfect and smart brain. Still in amazement at how God designs everything with perfection.
As we’re getting closer to his arrival date, he has doubled in size and now I’m starting to really feel pregnant. Waddling like a penguin, struggling to put on my socks and wanting to eat everything in the kitchen but making sure I stay healthy. Having those enjoyable kicks and squirms turn into a pain or pull, especially in my ribs, and not to mention the sleepless nights and back pain but still enjoying every bit of it. Being that God created us so perfect (Eph 2:10), my body and the baby know it’s almost time. He repositions himself out of breech position and into normal position as my body gets prepared and starts dilating to have him go through the birth canal.
Now we are in anticipation again because we can’t wait to meet him face to face and finally hold him in our arms. We are not rushing him, even though he’s past his due date, because we know God’s timing is perfect (Psalm 27:14)!
As I go through this great ordeal, experience in my life I wonder how can people think differently than I do, not to say they should or need to think like I do. How can a big explosion make things so perfect in this world, this universe? The way the earth operates, the way animals operate, the way everything falls in to place but most of all the way humans operate. Everything in this universe cannot be created, recreated or operate in the same way just by another explosion but only by God Himself. He thought and created everything so perfect but we want to deny Him of His powers and what He is capable of doing. God made me perfect. He created me to reproduce and be able to nurture and provide everything I need to bring another life into this world. He designed my body in a way that it automatically knows what to do and when it needs to go through different stages in life. I put my trust in the Lord because I know He is the Creator of everything and it’s only through His timing that His will be for me to bring another life into this world. I’m still amazed by Him.